SCRIPT CHECK · 60 SECONDS
Five quick questions show how often it appears, how believable it feels, and what it makes you avoid. You’ll get one private next step.
This is not a diagnosis and there is no pass or fail. It measures the current frequency, credibility, and behavioral cost of “If I'm not suffering, I'm not truly sorry — or faithful enough”, including the private rule underneath it: Good things are traps designed to hurt me more when they collapse. If I write the ending myself, I control when the pain starts. The resignation letter is proof I can leave before I'm forced to.
QUIET
“If I'm not suffering, I'm not truly sorry — or faithful enough” appears, but it rarely gets the final say. Keep this line available for higher-pressure moments: “This job is temporary. I don't have to pretend it's permanent. That means I can actually be here.”
PRESENT
“If I'm not suffering, I'm not truly sorry — or faithful enough” wins some small decisions before you catch it. Your useful interruption is: “I can notice the urge to draft the exit and not act on it. The urge isn't information—it's an old habit.”
ACTIVE
“If I'm not suffering, I'm not truly sorry — or faithful enough” is shaping action often enough to deserve a deliberate counterexample. Start privately and concretely: When you get good news today, notice the moment the resignation letter thought arrives. Don't delete it yet. Instead, write one sentence about something real you can do in this role next week—nothing heroic, just concrete. Read it twice. Leave both drafts unfinished.
DOMINANT
Right now, “If I'm not suffering, I'm not truly sorry — or faithful enough” is steering many of the moments you measured. That is a pattern reading, not a diagnosis or character verdict. Begin with one reversible receipt: When you get good news today, notice the moment the resignation letter thought arrives. Don't delete it yet. Instead, write one sentence about something real you can do in this role next week—nothing heroic, just concrete. Read it twice. Leave both drafts unfinished.