SCRIPT CHECK · 60 SECONDS
Five quick questions show how often it appears, how believable it feels, and what it makes you avoid. You’ll get one private next step.
This is not a diagnosis and there is no pass or fail. It measures the current frequency, credibility, and behavioral cost of “Everyone's watching to see if I'm still broken”, including the private rule underneath it: If I allow myself to sit quietly and notice what I'm thinking, doubt will take over, my faith will crack, and people will see I'm not as certain as I pretend to be. Staying occupied is the only wall between myself and religious collapse.
QUIET
“Everyone's watching to see if I'm still broken” appears, but it rarely gets the final say. Keep this line available for higher-pressure moments: “A question about faith is not the same as losing it. I can think about something and still belong.”
PRESENT
“Everyone's watching to see if I'm still broken” wins some small decisions before you catch it. Your useful interruption is: “My doubts didn't make me faithless—hiding them did. Being honest about what I notice is the only path to actual belief.”
ACTIVE
“Everyone's watching to see if I'm still broken” is shaping action often enough to deserve a deliberate counterexample. Start privately and concretely: Tomorrow, let one car ride or one meal happen without filling the silence. Notice what thought emerges. Don't act on it, don't push it away—just see it for 60 seconds. That's enough.
DOMINANT
Right now, “Everyone's watching to see if I'm still broken” is steering many of the moments you measured. That is a pattern reading, not a diagnosis or character verdict. Begin with one reversible receipt: Tomorrow, let one car ride or one meal happen without filling the silence. Notice what thought emerges. Don't act on it, don't push it away—just see it for 60 seconds. That's enough.